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Jan. 24th, 2017

loki

Dental implant and LASEK part 10: The final stretch, I hope

So I go to the eye doctor two weeks ahead of schedule because I'm flying to LA tomorrow and was concerned that all my starry special effects were going to impede my driving, and LA is one town where you need to be tack-sharp to drive. LA drivers, while not fond of unnecessary risks, drive fast and aggressively and you need to see them coming.  So I go to my doctor and tell him I'm nearsighted and that I'm seeing these double images at light sources...

Why did nobody else tell me that this is pretty much how nearsightedness works?  I haven't been appreciably nearsighted in twenty years and just don't remember that!  The doc indulged me a pair of glasses for driving, and the optometrist/assistant warned me not to wear them too much as they could give me headaches.  It's really, really cool being able to see though.  It has also allowed me to realize that distant building lights have starry special effects even for people with normal vision.  Again, why does no one mention this?

What's funny is the reason the doctor gave for why I'm still nearsighted at the six month mark.  Remember, farsighted eyes like mine have to be overcorrected because the naturally try to revert to their old shape.  The doctor tells me that some UV exposure is needed to nudge that process along.  Apparently my Goth-inspired habit of wearing a black corduroy hat all the time and otherwise avoiding UV exposure liike it's nuclear radiation has slowed my process.  No more hat, he says.  But where will I pin my Narrative Clip camera?  Oh the irony.

I complained about how my eyes get dry which hurts their focus even more, and the doc suggested a hot moist towel before bed.  It works, and it feels lovely besides.  I no longer wake up in the wee hours wanting eye drops, and my eyesight in the morning is better than I remember it.  Of course part of that is brain perception--understanding that all the Air Jordans and Jim Carrey ballerinas aren't an artifact of the surgery so much as a function of myopia drops my anxiety levels over them considerably.

Anxiety that now focuses on my tooth.  Also ahead of schedule to accomodate my LA trip was completing the implant process.  They screwed the bolt in the socket, fitted the coffee-stain colored zirconium into the space, and cemented it down over the screw-post.  Yesterday it felt fine, minus the usual post-dental sort throat.  The day before my right throat gland was swollen, as it had been for some days.  This morning I woke up with a cramp in my jaw and the new tooth sitting too high in its place, so I went to the dentist who kindly filed it down for me.

Right now my whole upper jaw is complaining, and I have a plane to catch tomorrow. The drill thing that filed down the tooth made a breathtakingly awful noise and I'm sure it offended all kinds off bone-tissue in my mouth.  The interdental brushes--which are de rigeur for this kind of implant--slip a little too easily in the gaps next to the new tooth.  The cold coffee late this morning felt awfully cold.  Is this my anxiety over my trip ahead, or is there really an issue?  Or is the bone just offended and it'll be fine in the morning?  Or worst--will things suck badly enough in the morning to make me miss my flight, or will going up in an airplane make everything horribly worse?

I'm far too good at building these mental snowballs.
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Jan. 6th, 2017

misty

Eye surgery and dental implant part 9: boredom punctuated with annoyance

Eyes still seem nearsighted, though it's something to kvetch about more than anything.  I'm able to ride my bike at the ordinary (not bat-out-of-hell) pace that I used before surgery, so that's something.  Night riding is still scary, especially since oncoming bicycle headlights give lovely starbursts that preclude seeing the rider of the bike.  Why would I need to see that?  To know whether the rider is distracted, or whether they are gesturing to me with their head.

It's month what, five?  I worry that my far-sight is not coming back, so I make a point of more riding, to work on the distance muscle tone.  Will it be enough?  I don't know.  I'm hoping to visit home in two weeks and difficulty driving would make that rough.

My neck is kinked up good from repairing the cat scratcher with a hot glue gun, and that can't help.  I don't feel it in the neck itself, just in the numb spot at the tip of my right thumb and the overall wandering tension in my back.

Dental though...oh joy.  Got the abutment put in tonight.  The Novocaine shot went rapidly in, the doctor made the incision that didn't bleed much relatively speaking, and the sensation of a screwdriver in my mouth was almost amusing.  The stitches were no fun, but with Novocaine they were no big deal...until it wore off, and it wore off pretty fast.  I went to the grocery store next door to pick up something soft for dinner and...wow.  Like papercuts from Hell, the pain seemed mostly on the surface but was irritated every time I swallowed. Mild nausea.  It's possible there's pain up further but I've studiously avoided putting any suction in that area.  Quite possibly that irritated it at first.

I took a Midol-like painkiller a few minutes ago so I wouldn't have to deal with the paiin, so I'm not trusting my memory on the gum-bone pain.  There's a slight taste of blood.  Happily I'm not hungry, and I've got a gallon of milk in case that changes.  Time to sit back and enjoy my recliner and cat.
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Dec. 13th, 2016

loki

Dental implant and LASEK part 8: Is that a Paxil in my pocket?

No, as it turns out.  The dentist was honest with me in telling me that it's a muscle relaxant, Sildalud by name.  I wasn't scheduled to go in to the dentist but I was getting pains in the molars surrounding the implant and didn't want to take any chances.  After all, if I hadn't ignored teeth shifting around on that side for as long as I did we might have caught the matter earlier.  Early enough?  Good question.  But the mere worry of that tooth implant going bad again is enough to scare me, and I wouldn't blame the dentist for dosing me with an anti-anxiety drug, I really wouldn't.  But he didn't.

I'm now more mindful when I go to bed to pull a blanket up over my neck and jaw.  I caught myself chattering just before falling asleep and am reminded that when I'm cold I do clench my teeth, conscious or not, and that this was the likely source of the pain.

Eye doctors I'm less impressed. The eye chart tests came in 20/20 for the right eye and 20/15--slightly farsighted--for the left.  This is a desirable outcome even if it means the eyes are uneven and they definitely were that day.  My disappointment, though...the doctor was pulling off his scrubs when he came to the office to talk to me and I remarked on that, how busy he is.  He is.  Most Korean doctors are tell you the truth, though I understand that's doctors period.  He was mildly annoyed at the left eye gone farsighted because he apparently confused me with a patient who got monovision (that is, left eye corrected to nearsighted for reading, right eye to far for other tasks, an approach I refused).  I know you're busy, dude, but my charts are right there and "Reading glasses okay" should be prominently on that chart.  Farsighted my ass--I was nearsighted and knew it, though the results made me question that.  Definitely double vision though, as the eye chart is black on white and digital besides, making it the high contrast that my eyes 'love'.  That was November 19th.

So last weekend I go to my old optometrist/sunglasses connection and I manage to talk him out of a simple exam, no glasses at all.  Surprise surprise, -0.75 in both eyes--nearsighted. I realized this most strongly when I was riding my bike home Friday and failed to recognize a close colleague in the market until she was right on top of me.

I'm biking again but careful to do so when the light is good and my brain not otherwise occupied, so not as often or as far as before.  My muscles are not happy with this, but they need it, my lungs need it to finally clear this allergy/infection crap, my heart needs it, my mental health needs it, and my eyes definitely need the workout.  My temples are still achy from Friday and Sunday's rides, compounded by deliberately doing far focus when I was walking last night and this morning.  Aware of the ankle traps in this country, I only do that when I'm quite confident of what's underfoot but that's basically the walking route home from coffee so it's doable.

Oddly this morning I forgot my steroid drops before leaving the apartment so decided to take them when I got to my destination.  Was it my imagination, or was my distance vision better this way?  Things five or 8 yards away were clear where last Friday--evening, to be fair-- I only had clarity at two yards. I should go take a walk and test this hypothesis.  Here inside the office though, nope.  The ficus at five yards has a glamorous soft focus to it. The library stairs outside in lovely natural light are only almost in focus.  A gray day--light level matters and contrast matters.

It's important to note that contrast matters more than light when it comes to ghosting.  Closeup, nothing ghosts anymore.  Okay, this screen as I type has tiny ghosties but I hardly see them. The calendar in my cubicle they come and go  (reaches for eyedrops since dryness affects this, and computer screens discourage blinking.  Sodium hyaluronate, yum.  It's actually the good stuff, since I appear to have left my mere Artificial Tears at home.  Yes, of course I have a backup with me, but it's hermetically sealed)  This momentarily makes the ghosties worse, like when you're crying and your vision goes to shit. The ficus is only slightly clearer. The library stairs are paradoxically less clear. The ghosts on the calendar go away when I close my right eye.

Yes, all of this is annoying, and had better go away by spring.

Meanwhile nights have gotten less sparkly.  Plenty of starbursts and black rainbows, these things I'm okay with.  The Air Jordan logos now look more like ballerinas, more horizontal than vertical.  There is a definite difference between each of my eyes, but I don't recall which is which. One catches star-ray distortions, the other gives me glorified ghosties.  Progress, but not enough.

This had better all go away by spring.

Some pictures.  I find this one interesting so I'm putting it first.  The vision simulator says this:
"Vision Quality Disparities:
Patients with bilateral eye injury or LASIK complications may report different aberrations in each eye. With both eyes open, these aberrations are synthesized to yield a composite image. However, one eye usually contributes more to the resulting composite than the other, a phenomenon known as "ocular dominance." This simulation illustrates one possible scenario, in which vision in the left eye is blurred following LASIK, whereas vision in the right eye is ghosted. Drag the slider right and left to control the degree of ocular dominance between eyes. The default if set at about 75% in favor of the right eye, reflecting the fact that for most individuals, eye dominance follows handedness."

Note where I've set the slider, towards the blurry eye and away from the ghosted one. That's my vision under good middling lighting conditions.

Here are my ballerina starbursts, roughly.  It's very hard to get an accurate version of this since it seems to combine starbursts and ghosting.  Also the really cool starbursts have a webby quality that the simulator does not include.


And finally the ghosting.  Only in high contrast situations, so it's not as bad as this picture makes it look.  The photos on the menu, for example, aren't that bad.  The text definitely is.


Now to get some work done.
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Nov. 4th, 2016

cat under stars

Dental implant and LASEK, part 7: this is getting annoying

I had a shot of whiskey in my evening coffee, so I'm feeling a bit whiny tonight.

Two weeks ago after playing around all weekend (and not resting) I got what could have been a cold.  In this case it seems to be a seasonal allergy, my body's response to dry indoor heat and falling leaves.  I called the eye doctor's office to see whether there were any medications I should avoid and the answer was no, nothing contraindicted by my eyes.  At three months I'm beginning to feel like they're just another part of my body now, something that, outside of the hat and sunglasses, don't take any special precautions.

The trouble is they're still nearsighted.  Sitting at coffee tonight--mind you, spiked coffee--the light bulb in the fixture above me was so clear I could almost read the print on the bulb, had I wanted to fry my retinas staring at it long enough.  Fully focused, no doublt images, approximately two meters from my face.  Across the room, however, came and went focus-wise.  Looking out the window into the garden and the after sunset colors were simply gorgeous but the lines between the green leaves and dark blue sky were not at all clear,  High contrasts items are even worse--the white pillow on the burgundy couch a mere three meters away produced a ghost image, but only if I focused on it.  Starker contrasts don't require such focus;  the hospital signs are still in doubles.

Nights--the satanic starfish are now less guy-on-fire and more like Air Jordan logos with tiny little jazz hands.   That's an improvement, right?  The moon the other night, though...I seriously wish it had been possible to photograph what I was seeing.  It was an orange crescent moon, just a sliver, but with my distorted visionn it looked as though it was leaping out of bed, a main image with two ghost images suggested someone getting up.  I wished I could see the unduplicated moon, but I also wish I couldd have photographed the leaping illusion.  Too bad.

Last appointment my right eye was 20/15 andd my left 20/25.  Neither doctor nor optometrist was concerned, but I know my own eye history.  As a child I had lazy eye and to this day my brain rarely uses both eyes, creating minimal depth perception.  My left eye may be slacking off.  I put a paper patch inside one pair of my sunglasses and wear those to and from the cafeteria, where I don't have to worry about tripping over anything on the pavement.  It is disorienting but it gave me nice sore temple-muscles on the left side so I may be on the right track there.  We shall see.

I remind myself that it's only been three months and that this can take uo to a year, but I'm also hoping to go home for good this winter which would make touching up a real problem.  I just hope I won't need touching up.

The implant gets looked at once a month like the eyes.  The new crown settled in and is easily forgotten, but the allergies had me worried.  Can I be sure those are allergies, and not a complication of the implant? 99% sure, but the sinuses are awfully close to all that.  Every little grumble on that side of my mouth makes me worry, and sinus pressure does push around the teeth on either side of the hole.The initial infection I mistook for unseasonable allergies, so I worry.

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Oct. 21st, 2016

cat under stars

I need to update my LASEK thing

For now, though, I'll attempt to illustrate the "satanic starfish".  Here is from the vision simulator:



though the arms have a curving way about them.  Imagine this stick figure with the light effects from above, and you understand what I see any time there is a bright point of light against a dark background.  This is only with *points* of light--signs and the like get common ghosties.



Giving speaking tests, pure headache with glasses, is easy while giving them.  I can read name tags clearly, see the kid's face clearly, and read my paperwork with reasonable clarity.  Afterwards, though, my eyes are dry and tired.  Part of giving a speaking test is giving a facial expression that projects friendly listening--eyes open, body language open--and that'a harder than it sounds. 
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Sep. 21st, 2016

death note

Dental implant and LASEK, part 6: roll with the changes

Because of the holiday I was able to take my bicycle out last Wednesday, on to the river trail that is fairly recently built and, as I would discover, had the previous holes in it filled (holes being gaps where they were installing drains).  It felt great, great enough to put in just over 11km total.  Damn I had a pent-up need for the road.

Alas, any need for speed remains pent up.  Riding like that requires fine focus at a distance which just isn't there yet, at least not around the dusk hours.  I had to keep my speed at about 11 kmh in order to see pebbles and the like in time to avoid them, really frustrating since I prefer to ride about 18-20 kmh on the river trail, 15 or 16 on roads, and those speeds were just a very bad idea.  Even slow I misjudged a turn and ended up on a knee and an elbow, barely scraped but still humiliating.

Dusk is a nice time, since UV is not an issue and lights aren't doing their special effects just yet.  The special effects' novelty has worn off and now they're mostly annoying.  Starbursts are increasingly rare, showing up mostly when I look directly at a bright light source.  Even then they're usually hazy rather than spiky, circled by a rainbow, much like before the surgery.  Not every light source does this, though, which is a shame really.  Not only is it pretty, it's less annoying than what I do get.  I call them Satanic starfish.  Most headlights and tailights do this, a five-pointed star with one point down, not symmetrical.  Looking at the Christmas lights I keep in my apartment, the ones at my feet do this but the ones close up are starbursts. This suggests to me that the starfish are a function of wrong focus rather than double images but I just don't know.

Ghosts remain a problem.  I'm getting them as I type now, though with a small black font on a white screen.  If I magnify the screen...there...they seem to go away and I catch my typos.  Looking for them though they are there even at this size, just easier to ignore. Contrast makes them worse, low contrast and they're very nearly gone.

I mentioned faces last time, but I no longer notice them.  Has focus improved, or has my brain simply started working around that?  It's significant that eyesight is as much brain as eyes.

A checkup on Saturday, and sadly I won't have time for one more bike ride.  That would give me a sense of how much distance vision I have as well as improving it.  A ton of train time last weekend gave me hours to work on my distance vision and I felt it helped.  Just now, after a long day at work, my evening paper taken by an open window (around sunset and not in direct light, but cloudy meaning I had no real sense of UV exposure), my eyes are dry and just not up to playing around.

A link to explain ghosting and starbursts. http://www.visionsimulations.com/simulations/

Got a second opinion on the other molar that needs capped and yes, it needs recapped dammit. The implant isn't causing any troubles directly, but there's a pressure under my nose on that side from time to time that suggests my maxillary bone has not forgiven me yet.  I worry that the dentist did not get all the infection out, but other than that pressure spot there is nothing to indicate anything wrong at all. I did get an itch up in my nose, at lunch time today as well as just now when I poked at the pressure spot.  Deliberating inhaling a little bit of water fixed that at lunch time so it may in fact be a thing in my nose and not at all related to the implant, I just don't know.  At least in the mirror everything looks in order, and the second opinion dentist did not see anything worth commenting on.
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Sep. 10th, 2016

cat under stars

Dental implant and LASEK, part 5: pushing my limits

The 29th I note I was able to take a nap at work.  Clearly I was not looking forward to that Friday's dental work. Clearly too the flaw in the air mattress was costing me sleep.  Got a new one.  I have a memory foam mattress but it's hard on my ankles, which are a perpetual problem especially given my substantial weight.

The dental implant was a special level of Hell.  The doctor was satisfied with my grafted bone so decided to go ahead.  I was taken to their surgery floor and prepped, given a muscle relaxant and mild sedative in a pair of shots, and then painted with the same antiseptic the eye surgeon used, the one that smells suspiciously like mercurochrome.  I'm layered in drop cloths, talked to to make sure I'm properly sedated, and told to open wide.

When the tooth was extracted the previous month and the bone rot scraped out, I damn near passed out, not from the pain but from the horror of having the inside of my face scraped.  This was no better, and despite the drugs was worse.  I remember what I'd swear was a power drill shoving the screw into my bone--merdifuly it went fast.  Cruelly it was one of four.    The next two were also drills and whizzed apparently until the bone dug in and stymied them.  After that was what I'd swear was a hand-held socket wrench--mind you, I'm under drop cloths and not seeing any of this--that the dentist torqued until my neck muscles hurt from trying to hold my head still.  On the bright side there was less blood squirting than during the extraction/scraping.  Yeah, and I like horror movies, but it's quite different when it's your facial bones.  Stitched up and given directions about what to do and not do, though I didn't have to bite on gauze for two hours this time.  I took a cab home and sat in my recliner, dreading the moment when the drugs would wear off and the pain would hit past where buffered iboprofen could handle it.  Kindly they sent me home with take-out porridge, a nice soft dinner and a signal that I could eat hot food as soon as I felt up to it. Of coursee, when you're swallowing blood food is not what's on your mind; I dabbed the blood and phlegm off my tongue with paper towels because I didn't want to swallow it.  I toughed through it Saturday.  Sunday at noon I didn't care about side effects and took some PMS pills I keep around to stop the pain.  I also got some smooth ice cream, finding the cold to be comforting.  The nerve through the roof of my mouth was pissed off and would not let up until that Thursday.  There was a sensation of trouble between the two molars behind, but that went away when the stitches were removed.  The doctor also pointed to another molar, one giving me no perceptible trouble at all, as needing re-crowned ASAP and possibly a root canal, look at this x-ray.  I can't read x-rays well enough to know if he's being truthful or gold-digging me, so I plan to get a second opinion from a doctor in Gangnam, who will have no incentive to invent cavities he won't get to fill.

My anxiety levels were crazy after the drills in my face, and I'd take another PMS pill later that week.  Just before my dental appointment today I got the runs, one of my body's more dramatic ways of telling my brain to back down. I told the dentist I had nightmares (I don't, just anxiety) to get him to delay the drill.

I really must learn to read dental x-rays.

Yesterday I got the dental stitches out and my face feels so much better.  My eyes are well though I'm still quite nearsighted.  In low contrast situations I can see the building across the parking lot clearly, though it looks further away than I know it is.  Faces in the hallway, though, are too ghosty to make out.  Faces in desks aren't bad inside of three meters. The starbursts on close-up lights are small to the point of pretty, but far headlights are still too starry.

I was able to go biking for the first time since the LASEK tonight (September 10th).  I kept to familiar roads and went out around dinnertime under nice low contrast cloudy skies.  I considered crossing a traffic lane at one point, looked in my rearview mirror and the image seemed clear, and no car in the road.  It's a good thing I trust my hearing, however, because there was a car coming up fat behind me.   So, no biking in traffic for me, though biking on trails even at night is reasonably safe as long as I don't go too fast.

Tired eyes, and it's time for bed.
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Dental implant and LASEK, part 4: back to work

The 19th and I'm back to work.  Air conditioning is very uncomfortable and the sunlight through the windows even on a cloudy day is uncomfortable.  Part of that is anxiety--without window glass, am I getting too much UV? Again with the notion that one screw up will leave me blind.  That's part of why I'm writing this, to reassure the next persion that they'll be fine.

Work is tiring but I get through it.  Since when is teaching not tiring?

August 20th posted a celebrity pinup on my feed.  I'm able to use a computer to work and have a little fun, though I don't tell the students that I can't get a clear focus of their faces.  Still nearsighted, though low contrast is easier to see than high contrast.  Faces, sadly, are high contrast.

Taking walks improves my visual focus especially at distance, but with improved focus comes the realization that my eyes are seeing second images, "ghosts".  The ghost of my cat on day two was almost as big as my cat himself.  Now they're just a line next to the image, though if I close one eye it's two ghosts in the left eye, three in the right.  I wonder if the goggle incident on the first day has anything to do with this.  I bring it to my doctor's attention and he's not worried at all.  I ask if I can get temporary glasses to make work easier and he says no, the eye muscles need to do their thing.  Damn.

23rd I realize that the steroid eye drops right before bed are interfering with sleep, and vow to take them a little bit earlier.  I woke up rubbing my right eye thinking I had a piece of cat fur in it, and scared myself.  A lot of eye drops to rinse it out, and night goggles again without consulting the doctor.  Nn harm in it.  The cat fur in eye sensation would last for two more days, and I didn't get proper rest until that weekend.  Dental checkup that weekend and progress was good, bone graft taking well and ahead of schedule.  I schedule the implant post for a Friday afternoon so I'd have the whole weekend to recover.  I'd have preferred it for the long holiday this month he he said naaaah, you won't need any recovery time at all.  My dentist lies.

The 26th I get an ocular migraine, though being a Friday before lunch I wasn't overly concerned--this has happened before. Eye appointment the following day so I'll ask him just in case.  At the appointment I try to explain the thing to him using this video, but my tablet froze.  What I did manage to explain did not worry him at all.  Tests show ocular pressure is lower than before surgery, which is weird but very good.

The next day I had a neck cramp and insomnia and complained of over-sensitive hearing.
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Dental implant and LASEK, part 3: Day 5 +

I taped the sleep goggles on and slept well finally.  There was (and to some extent, is) the fear that one mistake at this point in healing could leave me with a blind eye or two, and that's terrifying.  Knowing the goggles could not slip off in the night removed that worry, so sleep finally came.

The next day I amused  myself with podcasts and audio books.  My close up vision--like, tip of my nose close--was shockingly clear, and I saw things in my apartment that I literally had never noticed before.  By day 5 I could hold my tablet a few inches from my face and read it, so vision was slowly gaining distance.

Nearsighted eyes correct simply.  Farsighted eyes like mine have to be deliberately overcorrected because they heal, regressing back to farsighted.  What I was experiencing was perfectly normal, and the memory of my doctor's face directly after my surgery assured me that I would not be stuck profoundly nearsighted forever.

Day six, a checkup and a removal of the bandage contacts.  That felt so good!  I looked forward to a proper shower and rinsing my hair.  I'm lucky that, especially on vacation, my hair looks decent without shampooing if I rinse it frequently.

Dominant eye is dominant, and at one point I could close it when it got too tired and resume reading with the non-dominant eye.  I'm reminded that my brain can shut out an eye if it wants to, as it did in my childhood, and make a conscious effort to use both.  I'm able to walk to and from the coffee shop, about a block from home, provided I walk carefully and stick with familiar routes. I can't actually see the sidewalk under my feet yet. Sharp headaches occur in my temples, but closing my eyes makes them go away so it's clearly just eye muscles getting a workout.   Neat trick though--if I want to see something that's just a little too far away, I take out my phone camera and point it at the thing.  The camera screen is close enough to see, though this makes fellow coffeehouse denizens nervous.

15th August I'm able to see my feet and the sidewalk under them.  A pimple threatens to form under one eye but that's possibly just from the bandage tape I use at night.  Still, I'm aware that eye surgery and dental surgery came rather close together.  No symptoms of the teeth noted, but my mind was not on that.

The 17th I note that I stank--was this my sense of smell coming back?  A friend on my feed thinks so. The steroid eye drops may be improving my sinuses, especially after the maxillary infection.  The dentist seems to think the eye drops can't effect anything but the eyes but that makes no sense to me at all.  No menstrual periods since the surgery, and occasional hot flashes though I know I get them under stress. Acid reflux is surprisingly quiet--is this too from lack of inflammation, or simply my vacation dietary habits?  I'll have to ask my ent when I see him.
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Dental implant and LASEK, part 2: the next few days

I had the good sense to schedule the LASIK on my week off.  LASIK with an eye recovers within a day for a nearsighted person, but leaaves you with a vulnerable eye flap.  Because my purpose with this was to make sports easier, I went with 'EK.  This has a longer recovery time.

My feed tells me I was still on antibiotics from the dentist, a fact I would have brought to the surgeon's attention, but nothing apparently came of it.

Puffiness around the eyes, terrible light sensitivity as well as sensitivity to wind--even the slightest breeze around my face was terrible.  I could read and post only by casting my computer screen onto my large screen television and sitting close to it. Even then I had to keep the screen on the dimmest setting possible and only read for a few minutes at a time.  I did lots of napping the first day.

Here is my uncorrected post:

"I must keepthis nrief, and I can't read my feed just now.
I am super light sensitive, a syptom that mabe shouldn't show up 'tl tomorrow. Maybe that means I'll recover faster?
Light hurts, a puff of air on my eyeball is torture, but otherwwise I'm doing very well. Not tired, though I know I must rest. Slightly nearsighted I think, but that's because eyes ike mine 'bounce back' and will bounce to a slight farsighted, by design.
Seriously wish I could read all my messages just now, but the white of the screen is just too much. Tomorrow if I'm lucky, in a couple days otherwise."

The next day my spirits were lifted if not my vision.

"Bacon and eggs, giant iced vanilla latte (homemade), a couple hours' nap, weather outside is grey and breezy. Wanna play! Okay, where's the dimmer? It's too damned bright out there, way too bright.
Brought to you by ctrl +, making this window cover about a third of the screen."

And the bandage contacts were as annoying as any contacts.  It helps to note that I'd made a mistake with the eye drop insttuctions, and was using the plasma drops instead of artificial tears when my eyes felt dry.
"</span>New rule: don't look down. Do not look down. For some reason that makes my eyeball think the contact lens is trying to fold. Not good.
(After Lasik they give you a 'bandage' contact lens to make airflow bearable. Do you know how long it's been since I've worn contacts?)"


Not sure why I waited for dark, except that I would later replace my ordinary sunglasses with wraparounds.  From the same day:
"</span>Waiting impatiently for the sun to go down so I can get more bottled water, and just get out a bit. Not near enough stamina to go to coffee but I figure I can handle the corner store."

That night my sleeping goggles came off in my sleep and I got a slight but perceptible pressure on my eyeball--right eye I think.  This resulted in what I described as glitter and fluorescent lights in my vision.  The bars of white light when I squint have persisted even to this day (September 10th) and bear a passing resemblance to an ocular migraine, something I do get on rare occasions when I've let myself get run down. While an alarming symptom, they don't seem to indicate anything. I also described my eyes as feeling smokey--dry, in hindsight.

Light sources, like the Christmas lights I decorate my home with, looked like spiders.  This has improved though it's still how I'd describe city lights at night.  The first night light sources were dialog balloons, so spiders were an improvement.  A day or two later they would become spider webs, absolutely clearly rendered spider webs emanating from any nearby light source.

The 11th, I realize the plasma drops aren't moisturizing well enough but by vision is too nearsighted to read my instructions, or to operate my scanner software.  I photograph my instructions and post it to friends, magnify it, and discover the mistake.  Ahhhh that feels better.

I remember, though apparently never posted, that I fell asleep under the air conditioner in one of the previous days.  I was not directly under it, keep a lightweight canopy over my bed, but woke up with eyes so dry they felt like I'd had chili pepper eye drops in them.  I have naturally dry eyes, but this went way beyond that.</span>
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